Do you ever feel like the Universe is trying to make sure you really get something?
I’ve been working on letting go for years. As a recovering control freak, I admit it’s been challenging. I understand I can’t control anything but how I choose to react to what happens. I’ve also experienced the peace that comes with accepting what is, even when it doesn’t make you happy. Even still, it’s a conscious choice I have to make every single time. It’s not automatic by any means.
Sometimes, it feels like the Universe is really trying to make sure I’ve got this letting go thing down.
Now is one of those times.
In fact, it’s encompassing my husband, too. Just a lot of little things adding up to what feels like a great big reminder to let go of the things we can’t control. And to trust that everything will be OK.
Here are just a few examples from the past month… most from the past week!
It’s just a car…
The little hybrid I bought a year ago so I could be more fuel efficient as I drive all over town to pet therapy visits, was hit by another driver. He smashed in the rear bumper of my pretty little car pretty darn good. Yes it’s just a car, and yes, the other driver’s insurance covered the costs to repair the damage, but it was disheartening to have it damaged. It wasn’t my fault so I was quite angry. It took me a bit to let go of that anger.
Perhaps I needed a reminder about letting go of emotions that don’t serve me.
Our daughter got engaged…
While we’re thrilled about this news, this is absolutely a big letting-go lesson. And, it was underscored this past weekend while we were at another wedding. My husband was watching the father-daughter dance and was overcome by emotion.
Envisioning this letting-go point with our own daughter sometime in the near future no doubt.
A few days ago I lost one of the diamond earrings my husband gave me 35 years ago, for our first Christmas as a married couple. I’ve worn these earrings every day for the past 35 years. I’ve lost one a few times over the years but I’ve always found it later the same day. Not so this time. This time I really think it’s gone. Yes, it’s just an earring. But it has huge sentimental value.
A reminder that even still, it’s just a material possession?
My husband called me a little while ago and shared that he looked down this morning at a ring that used to be his fathers, and realized one of the diamonds was missing. He’s had the ring for more than 20 years. Interesting we both lost sentimental diamonds a few days apart.
A double duty reminder not to be attached to material things?
It’s only money…
My husband also shared that he received a call from his boss this morning, letting him know there would be no raises for management this year. Not even a cost of living raise. And, even though the union guys that work for him would be getting their annual increases. Of course, since I’ve cut back on work to spend more time writing and doing pet therapy work, the extra money would have been helpful.
Time to trust that we’ve been OK so far and we’ll continue to be OK?
Bye Bye Chargers Football…
The final straw was a news report this morning announcing our city’s pro football team, the San Diego Chargers, were leaving San Diego after spending the past 56 years here. This really wasn’t unexpected news, but as a Chargers fan it’s definitely another great big let-go moment. Plenty of people are pretty mad. But what’s the point? It’s not going to change anything. They’re going and we may as well accept it and move on.
And there are a few other things I won’t go into, but suffice it to say, I’ve been given plenty of opportunity to let go over the past month.
I’m getting better at letting go, but that doesn’t mean it’s easy.
I get that hanging on to things I cannot change only makes me miserable. It doesn’t undue what’s been done.
I think through it all, the biggest challenge for me is trusting that despite it all, everything will be OK. Accepting that perhaps it’s all part of a grander scheme. That one, or all, of these circumstances could be exactly the thing that leads me to something greater. A new path. A new purpose. More meaningful work. Or maybe just a greater sense of peace that despite what happens to me or in this world (and plenty of unsettling things have happened in the past year!), how I choose to respond really does have the power to make or break my happiness and peace of mind.
I will embrace these lessons and encourage my husband to embrace them, too.
And trust they’re setting us up to be happier in the coming year. Content with what is. Able to shake off the small stuff more easily. And trusting we can get through the big things, too… it’s all up to us.
And hey, if nothing else it’s got me writing again after feeling blocked for the past few months!