Have you ever watched the flow of money in your life?
As I’ve been endeavoring to simplify my life, cutting out things I don’t really need—and lowering expenses in the process—I find myself observing the flow of money more and more.
I’ve worked hard over the past year to release my attachment to money and things as a representation of my worthiness and value.
It’s quite interesting when you choose to detach from the emotion of money and material possessions. It’s almost as if you become an observer of the process… of the flow… of the coming and going of money and things in and out of your life.
However, recently I feel as if this new way of being, is being challenged.
Everywhere I turn, money issues seem to be arising…
I was inspired to give my daughter money to buy a car, even though that meant dipping into savings—something I’m trying not to do right now. But it was such a clear inspired idea, I knew it was the right thing to do. And, it felt great and totally warmed my heart.
Mental note: Giving feels good; maybe even better when you have less to give and you give anyway.
Immediately after that, my son’s car pretty much died. Okay, that’s interesting. Luckily he lives with us and we have a car he can drive in the meantime. But still, not exactly great timing. Until a few days later, when a buyer shows up offering cash for the car, even though it wasn’t for sale.
Mental note: Okay, easy go, easy come!
Then our television goes on the fritz. Out of warranty. Manufacturer admits there were defect issues but refuses to help us out. Not thrilled about having to tap into savings to replace the TV. I decide to let Costco know one of their manufacturers is not standing behind their products, just because I think they need to know. Costco offers us a credit for the TV.
Mental note: Money comes from unexpected places.
A few days later our upstairs fish tank springs a leak and ruins the carpet. We have to replace all the carpet. Carpet is expensive.
Mental note: What the hell is going on here? I’m trying to save money!
Suddenly, and unexpectedly, the flow reverses.
Out of the blue, a new client shows up.
Mental note: Okay, someone’s looking out for us… we’re being taken care of.
But, an even bigger surprise occurs when I go to process the client’s payment. I discover my credit card processor has deactivated my account without letting me know.
Mental note: I’m confused, money can go out but it can’t come in?!
I quickly get the account reactivated and think all is well… until the credit card company tells me they cannot process the payment and I must offer a refund.
Mental note: WTF?!
I decide it is what it is and all I can do is keep moving forward.
I decide to get a new credit card processing company. I’m impressed by how quickly they process and approve my application. I’m back in business… until I discover I now also need a new Internet Gateway account—turns out I can’t transfer my existing one to the new processor.
After months of being on sabbatical I’m finally trying to get back in business and it feels like obstacle after obstacle.
Mental note: Why is this happening? Am I not supposed to be in business? Am I supposed to be doing something else?
I decide it’s simply a time of transformation for my business.
Time to start fresh and get ready for something bigger and better. Time for the old to fall away and be replaced with new.
I accept it.
It’s like a changing tide. The old is flowing out and the new is flowing in. In preparation for a new day… a new business… a new life.
So I choose to let go, and once again trust that there is a grander plan. And while I may not see it all or even understand it today, it will all make sense one day. After all, it always does.