I heard it many times in all of the personal development seminars I attended over the years. Once you shift, change your mindset, or grow, you can’t go back to the way things were… or to the way you were. It was promised as a good thing. Growth and transformation were the goal. You work hard for both. It’s challenging to change ingrained mindsets and beliefs. So, I always thought… cool, after all this hard work I don’t want to go back.
Now I’m not so sure.
Maybe it was just the personal development seminars I attended and the teachers I followed. But the focus was always on striving for more. It was always about changing your mindset and busting through limiting beliefs in order to make more money and be more successful. When you mix this with a personality that is already driven and prone to constantly strive for more, the effects are not always good. In some ways, it creates a monster. One that is never satisfied, can’t sit still, has a hard time just relaxing and being happy with things the way they are.
Why? Because they can always be better!
The gurus were right. You can’t go back. But not in the way I imagined. I’m not convinced anymore that it’sa good thing.
There are days when I get really mad about this. While I have grown in many ways that serve me, this is not one of those ways. I sometimes wish I could go back to the way I was.
I long for the me that was naturally present in life.
Now, I have to work at staying in the present moment. I feel like I’m always thinking about my goals, my business, what I will be doing next, and how I can grow, live my purpose, and serve the world.
I long for the me that just naturally followed inspiration. Now it takes effort and focus and daily practice.
I long for the days when I was just happy with my life. When it wasn’t always about getting somewhere else.
I’m working hard to retrain my brain back into that more relaxed state.
It was healthier for me. My life was more balanced. I was plenty successful, and I was more satisfied.
No, I can’t go back. However, I can go forward with a positive attitude. And, I suppose now that I’m aware of both ways of being, I can choose the one that suits me.